Reflections of a
you THINK ionated
An open and honest view on the thoughts of a retiree
that everyone in my shoes will surely recognize.
I don't understand it. I have laundry lists of decades-delayed must-dos and wanna-dos, half-baked or completely insane bucket lists, unfinished projects, ideas, and intentions. For myself, I don't really need to live long for the sake of living long, as long as it's a meaningful and quality life. Being able to actively watch my granddaughter grow up, for example.
But now I'm suddenly faced with a feeling of time pressure. And the "enlightened" hedonist in me seems more combative than ever.
What do we have now? Before, classical laws and practical objections or fear of melancholy stood in the way. Now, with a freer mind, I'm confronted with a persistent sense of untapped potential. Unused, perhaps suppressed—call it talents?
I'm highly sensitive. Too much stimulation at once usually leads to repression and an approach that was primarily concerned with responsibility and citizenship, primordial, urgent solutions, control, certainty, and the like, at the expense of adventure, experimentation, and a we-will-see-it attitude.
Sometimes there could be a bit more of a who cares, a WTF. But what's the answer if you're not yet ready to weigh the pros and cons between, phew, take it easy now, and God, I still want so much...